Lunch Table Flashbacks
Moving to, I mean, transferring to this new school, it was...
People didn't really know who I was when I walked in.
They didn't know how to react to me.
How to respond to anything I said.
It was just, it was new
When everyone else had people who they already trusted
People who they already had their first experiences in high school with
It's like they moved on, and I was left behind basically.
(Russell Lashley)
So how did that feel? Being left behind and people not really understanding you yet? Being new?
He's mad, he's mad
He feels abused in every way, I hear him crying every day
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His emotions were played with
Had nobody to stand with
Had nobody to sit with
All alone by himself
Kids were everywhere
where he sat, they did not care
Always looking over there
Nobody over there
so he sat in his chair
thinking life aint fair
feeling hatred for the friends that just weren't there
He couldn't find his heart with all the pain and despair
Couldn't find his mind with that butt in that chair
Is it bad I'm a monster?
Is it bad I can conjure the pain that I foster?
Are you mad that I prosper?
My hopes and believes
My wishes and my needs
Cut out by a knife representing life
Free fall of the rain, soak my dreams away
I have only more to gain, I drink the rain
Long way to fame, but the way is pain
Pain is power, fame is power
what does it mean to be free when you feel like a victom
the whole worlds against you cause you wrecked the system
In their minds, I'm just one symptom
A disruption in the order of the prison
Fearsome
Well, I worked hard and then some
Just to become a direct sum of what people should run from
Power will come from the beating heart of the young one
and the revenge to become one
sad, angry, egotistical, all-powerful king
Yes I was, yes I was the royal one
Me and no other one
I'm the only one
The other ones are done
Courtesy of Anthony
Long live, King Anthony
Guards, find the ones that bullied me
Make them say the oath, long live king Anthony
and then when you're done, bring them to me
I wanna make sure they remember me
It's like they moved on, and I was left behind basically.
(Russell)
So how did that feel? Being left behind and people not really understanding you yet? Being new?
Honestly, it was tough. It was really really extraneous.